Habit changes are challenging. Remember that as you start working on modifying the way you live your life. Even those of us who live with neurodivergence that makes keeping the old habits difficult have trouble installing new ones.
It’s very much like walking up a low hill. On the one hand, it looks smooth. Each step looks not that different from the one before it. But they are. Over time, it takes a bit more effort than you realize.
Add to it that you are striving to push, pull, or carry something up that gentle incline and it builds up. Don’t quit because you’re tired.
Keep pushing uphill. The thing is, a year from now, you will look back see that you’ve come up a great distance. It’s not as flashy as climbing the mountain overnight. But the growth is worth it.